Sunday, May 14, 2000

On Thursday, The Tall Guy had his going-away party. I tried not to be too depressed about it - I mean it was supposed to be a celebration of all the time we (all his friends) have hung out with him, not an invitation to mope on the close of a chapter. Besides, there is always the chance that he will come back to Potsdam (at least to visit) and there will always be memories.

It was funny, because we'd requested one of the lounges in my hall to have the event in. Then, our residence staff decides to hold several other events in the same place at the same time. We ended up driving the people for the other events out though, because so many had showed up for the going-away party. The turnout for the other events wasn't so impressive.

He'll be leaving about two weeks after finals week ends at S.U.N.Y. Potsdam (three weeks from now). Life in Potsdam isn't going to be the same without him - he's one of my best friends here. Frankly, I don't make friends very easily. Strangely enough, it was Charlie Brown who said it best, "I'm sick of goodbyes...I need more hellos." You know, Charles Schultz had one of the most fucking depressing comic strips in existence.

It was Saturday afternoon that I went walking in the woods. I'd woken up around 2:00PM, and was sitting in the dinning hall having a very late breakfast when a friend of mine sat down with me. Out of nowhere, she asked if I wanted to explore the wilderness with her, and I agreed.

So, she drove out to where the streets have no pavement and we found ourselves surrounded by nature. I wish I had brought my camera - stunning.

Up until that point, I didn't realize how much I needed a walk in the woods. It was peaceful - a canopy of trees shading a trail that was used but not too worn. The Racquette River roared to the side of the trail, its levels high from all the rain Northern New York has gotten recently.

I felt more at peace after going through the forest. I don't really consider myself "one with nature" but at the same time, the fact remains that human beings are nothing more than overdressed animals.

I should walk in the woods more often.